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It’s Been Tough to Hold Things Together Lately
Everyone’s talking about how ‘things are looking better’ and I just feel like a fraud because I can’t feel it
It’s been so hard to hold things together lately.
Let’s just take a moment and feel that: It’s been hard to hold things together lately.
It feels good to say, because I haven’t been saying it. I’ve been saying I’m fine, Things are good, Can’t complain, Oh you know just winterish, Doing all right — how bout you?
Everyone’s talking about how “things are looking better” now — pandemic things, economy things, job market things, child care things, spring is around the corner — and I can’t see it.
Oh, I can understand the words and logic. I can appreciate the cautious optimism. But I can’t see it for myself.
Because I can’t feel it for myself.
I’m not feeling better. I’m not feeling like better is on my near horizon.
It makes me feel like a fraud. I am a fake. A façade. I mirror human optimism; I don’t feel it.
It’s been two years that we’ve been in this pandemic. What the heck just happened to us?
